Dear Debra:
It
is noon on Wednesday and the sun is shining.
The USA NCIS marathon is on in the background. Tiger is sleeping beside
me and Sky is under the covers on the bed.
I have a letter to a pen pal in AZ beside me and I thought since I
wasn’t doing much today I would get it written.
I
haven’t finished Monday’s entry yet and I didn’t write much yesterday. I was kind of angry at a discussion Liz and I
had Monday night. We had gotten a call
from Cheryl who just had a conversation with Lawyer guy and apparently he told
her to have us make a list of things I still needed or wanted. So we did. We
also talked about finances and hoped to submit to see if Lawyer would do as he
promised. We fully realize he may not.
She says I need to be a little
more responsible about the finances and she seems to believe that I feel I am
entitled to things. She believed that
Mom had me go to all weddings and trips.
I reminded her that just last week when we were shopping and she wanted
to buy a whole lot of stuff for the condo I said no. She acknowledged that.
I think what angered me was the
fact what she said was exactly what my late asshole grandmother said many years
ago to me. (the comment about the weddings).
I probably said I don’t know or probably nothing at all but I almost
wanted to tell my sister it is none of her business how or why.
Of course I haven’t said anything
more to her about it since then but she doesn’t know what arrangements we (Mom
and I had). She doesn’t know what I have
done with others when she wasn’t present.
I don’t think its her business.
She feels that if I don’t control
the spending that someone would have to step in and give me a stipend or
allowance. Or I would end up losing the
condo and end up in Assistant living.
I know I have said this many
times in the last several months but I keep thinking she is gathering proof of
my bad decisions/and actions despite the fact she is trying to help.