KateP's musings

Good Morning! I am leaving in 15 minutes with Dave to meet Mary and her sons at the restaurant for lunch and then go to the Orchard. I suspect we will also do the Corn Maze. That should be fun. Not really but what the hay. Hey everyone I am back. It has been a long day. Dave didn’t get here until around 11:15 and we had to wait a bit because Mary was still at church. I told Dave they should have said this originally. I mean I could have done bingo if I tried and also went to church. I was going to go at 8:30 but by the time it came time I didn’t. We started off at 11:30 and headed to the Meeting place while we were driving Mary called and said she would not be getting there until 1. So we made a few side stops. (Now that I am writing this so late I can’t remember what order they were.) They were Dunkin Doughnuts, Vinnie’s garden shop they all didn’t take very long. Mary and the kids were just ordering when got there (we had no trouble finding it). It was in a lovely place on Route 66. ...

It is just a little before 7 and I have been out of bed for a while now. I had been awake longer than that and I could hear Mom moving around I thought she was getting up but her door was closed when I went to the bathroom this morning. Things are not any better from last night as she was going to bed I went to say good night but she also had an attitude. You know I really don’t care now. I am sick and tired of receiving the blame for things and that’s what it seem to be these days from everyone who has gotten into a fight with me. It is after 2 and nothing has changed. She is as arrogant and self righteous as ever. I talked with her and had to ask her how long was she going to stay angry with me? Until I change my attitude. What a fucking irresponsible bitch. I have no right to talk to her that way? How about the way you have been talking to me? Telling me how and when to say things as though I am second class citizen? Too goddamned bad you have to be told that you were rud...

My Mind is racing so much that I can't sleep. I know part of it is the soda I drank yesterday. The other part is because I was worrying if I was too negative with people or if I my attitude was worse then anyone else's during the oyster fest. I was also remembering all the people I met through out the day. There was Shirley from the bus, Barbara from Treats farm, Dottie B (and that was a little awkward but I maintained civility. I told Roberta about it too. She said she avoided her altogether), I met one of the athletes from MOM. I also saw classmates I called the wrong name. I saw the Novistein Family through out the day. I also saw Rob Serrano and Barbara Genovese. I decided to watch TV but all I managed to do is lose more sleep. I am thinking if I don't any sleep that I might have to skip bingo. I probably will get an argument from Mom but I just can't help it. I am thinking that I need to change some things about myself. The fact I am so critical or negative. Even i...