Going Apple Picking Today

Good Morning! I am leaving in 15 minutes with Dave to meet Mary and her sons at the restaurant for lunch and then go to the Orchard. I suspect we will also do the Corn Maze. That should be fun. Not really but what the hay.

Hey everyone I am back. It has been a long day. Dave didn’t get here until around 11:15 and we had to wait a bit because Mary was still at church. I told Dave they should have said this originally. I mean I could have done bingo if I tried and also went to church. I was going to go at 8:30 but by the time it came time I didn’t.

We started off at 11:30 and headed to the Meeting place while we were driving Mary called and said she would not be getting there until 1. So we made a few side stops. (Now that I am writing this so late I can’t remember what order they were.) They were Dunkin Doughnuts, Vinnie’s garden shop they all didn’t take very long.

Mary and the kids were just ordering when got there (we had no trouble finding it). It was in a lovely place on Route 66. Yes Connecticut has a Route 66. We sat down and then gave our order. I had chicken nuggets, onion rings and water. I think Dave had tuna something.

While we were talking Mary had to reprimand or scold her son Eric a few times and encourage her other son Garrett to eat. She was saying that Eric was spoiled and that her MIL spoils him and then criticizes her for not disciplining him enough. Something I have felt on a number of occasions.

After we ate we took off for the Lyman Orchard Complex. We met up with our friends Julie and Keith. They brought their son and another little boy. We went to the Corn maze and went through it. It was $8 and as in the past went to the Cancer Society. This time it was in the shape of a lady bug. As in the past there were trivia questions and some extra stuff too. It got a bit hairy a few times.

Once we were done with the corn maze (maybe an hour later) we stopped in the Apple Barrel shop and did some shopping and tried the samples. I didn’t buy anything but everyone else did. Julie and Keith had to leave for home but we decided that we would do a pot luck dinner for November 1. Once we said goodbye to them we headed to the Orchard and did some fruit picking. Before we left Mary was a little annoyed with Dave for taking his time at shopping while she had the boys who were getting bored. It was not really Dave’s problem but he also does forget he is with other people.

First we headed to the Pears and got separated from Dave. I stayed with Mary and she had to scold the boys. I called Dave to see where he was but I saw him as he was coming back.

Our next stop was the Apples. I got just over 4 lbs while Mary was picking some and so where her kids. Once we finished we chatted and she admitted or criticized Julie for making comments about disciplining her kids or letting the kids stress her out. Dave was totally ignoring it but I made some suggestions (and observations) that counseling might help. I also said that some people feel they can discipline other people’s kids in their homes or set boundaries. She didn’t seem to buy it. I asked Dave later if she said those things not only to criticize about Julie but in around about way tell me not “to discipline her kids”. If they had gone on ahead or something I would say something and I asked and she said she had no problems with it. She also felt her SIL’s were too strict. I felt differently.

We said goodbye and headed back home. The ride was fine until we got to Milford. We got to Merwin Avenue and I asked Dave if he could help get he bulk trash out with me so Mom wouldn’t have to. (That was my intent but) from there it went to hell very quickly.

He hemmed and hawed and said he wanted to go walk the dog first and get some pie for Mom and me. Well I got angry because he wasn’t taking me home first and was reduced to us call each other names and him almost throwing me out of the car. He reminded me that the day after his father died I bitched about Mom but did he say anything no. I realized he was right. I apologized and I offered to go back and get the dog walked with him and we would do the bulk trash after. Things were fine after that. We emptied the car and then came back here.

I was apparently pretty hyper when I came home because Mom commented before I left. She has no idea what had preceded our arrival. We talked about the corn maze and how successful I was at the apple picking and how we found our way with little difficulty.

Once we had gotten enough stuff out for now Dave and I went back to the house and walked the Dog and then he had dinner and I had a piece of pie and then he drove me home and I apologized again.

Mom was watching and having a late dinner. She was exhausted and wanted to relax. I went upstairs and watched TV for the next few hours. I got into my pajamas and put the AC on. I was watching Philadelphia (1993) and something on the History channel about the Twin Towers on 9/11. It got to be too much.

I also checked some emails and answered some of the ‘Sad News’ replies when I posted last week about Dave’s Dad passing. One of them was from Telka. I was so embarrassed that I hadn’t seen them before this. I replied tonight. I also got an email from my friend Michele P asking about Lyman orchard. I hope she got the link with ease.

Mom went to bed a short time ago and I will be following suit. Tomorrow I go back to work. I was checking the work emails and found one from Stephanie M. She had the revised documents I had given her to use while I was on vacation. I have no idea what to expect when I get there. I am still concerned I will be spoken to about the stuff under the desk. I hope not but this will be chance to start out fresh again.

Well I better get going. I am too wired to get to sleep. I may throw out some more papers and then hit the sack. I am really worried that my alarm clock won’t go off. It was ringing when I got home.

Emotional Day

It is just a little before 7 and I have been out of bed for a while now. I had been awake longer than that and I could hear Mom moving around I thought she was getting up but her door was closed when I went to the bathroom this morning.

Things are not any better from last night as she was going to bed I went to say good night but she also had an attitude. You know I really don’t care now. I am sick and tired of receiving the blame for things and that’s what it seem to be these days from everyone who has gotten into a fight with me.

It is after 2 and nothing has changed. She is as arrogant and self righteous as ever. I talked with her and had to ask her how long was she going to stay angry with me? Until I change my attitude. What a fucking irresponsible bitch. I have no right to talk to her that way? How about the way you have been talking to me? Telling me how and when to say things as though I am second class citizen? Too goddamned bad you have to be told that you were rude. Oh I forgot the living treasure has to account to no one. Bullshit.

Now being after 3:30 I have had one of those changes of hearts. After venting in the house by myself (mom went out) and I told her when she came home that I am sorry if I said or did anything wrong. She told me that if I don’t think I did anything wrong then of course I interrupted her and told her I can’t keep pointing out things she did wrong and I need to know that just because I think I didn’t do anything wrong doesn’t mean I didn’t. Telling Mom she did towards me or any of the others is not going to work well.

Mind is racing.

My Mind is racing so much that I can't sleep. I know part of it is the soda I drank yesterday. The other part is because I was worrying if I was too negative with people or if I my attitude was worse then anyone else's during the oyster fest.

I was also remembering all the people I met through out the day. There was Shirley from the bus, Barbara from Treats farm, Dottie B (and that was a little awkward but I maintained civility. I told Roberta about it too. She said she avoided her altogether), I met one of the athletes from MOM. I also saw classmates I called the wrong name. I saw the Novistein Family through out the day. I also saw Rob Serrano and Barbara Genovese.

I decided to watch TV but all I managed to do is lose more sleep. I am thinking if I don't any sleep that I might have to skip bingo. I probably will get an argument from Mom but I just can't help it.

I am thinking that I need to change some things about myself. The fact I am so critical or negative. Even if people don't say it to me I knew I was being critical. Whether it was about interacting with the people in the tent or about seeing people bring animals to the festival.

Well I am going to try and go to sleep. I was hoping that the ambient music I am listening to would calm me but it isn't. Maybe I can try the meditation music. I may have to look up meditation on the web to see how to do it. I asked Mom about it last night. She said there are ways to do it...

Well I will let you know how it works out.

Okay I finally got some sleep. The player stopped playing during the night. I don't remember what time I finally fell asleep but I woke up around 7. I got online for a bit. answered some emails, checked some forums, and read any articles there were on the Oyster Festival.

The one I read was from CTPost.com In the article it said over 1000 people were there. When I told Mom later she said there had to have been more. She is right. The article quoted one woman who complained the crowds made it hard to shop. I have not seen what the Register wrote about it but I am sure some others will. I will check the blogs again. Now though I need to move for bingo.