That's weird!

Although i haven’t made contact with Liz except for the few text messages from the birthday or butt dialing and I think of her from time to time (evidence of mentioning in the THankful THursday posts) i got an alert that she finally saw pictures I shared with her.  Well I haven’t shared any since probably the summer (before the argument).

A part of me (and I know this sounds a little “off”) is wondering if she is checking up on me through various avenues without calling?  To find proof I am not doing what should be done?  One of the reasons I say this is because if and when Lawyer Bob leaves and gives the trusteeship to an associate and they don’t want it then it goes to who else? Sis.  If she does get it what is to stop her from coming over anytime she wants and “take inventory” of things?  Something I get concerned about for sure.

My phone had been acting wonky.  Didn’t alway unlock so I can use it.  Had to keep putting my pin # and it's getting old. I decided to turn it off and back on and now it seems to be working.  Yay  me for some sort of problem solving.

I have been having headaches in the last couple of days.  Not exactly sure why.  My ankle has been acting up for the last couple of days as well.  Trying to take it easy on it but not an easy thing when you have to walk places.

I haven’t been to the gym since Tuesday but I am definitely going tomorrow at least for the session with Alex.  I am curious to listen to his review.  I don’t think I am getting the inbody this week but we will see.

My infusion was cancelled for today and rescheduled for next Thursday the 25th at 1:30.   The doctor was out sick (a doctor has to be in the office when infusions are done).  That’s okay.  At least I was able to stay and do my work.  I was also able to walk with the ladies to the garage today.  

After work I had dinner at chipotle before seeing Debra.  I had a taco salad w/chicken.  It was delicious (I don’t usually have a problem with their food) and then I went to debra’s office and we had our session.  It had been two weeks since we saw each other so I read some entries until I got bored! :)  I told her about work, my concerns about Liz becoming the trustee to the house.  Debra suggested I speak to Lawyer Bob about it.  Again I probably have nothing to worry about.

The ride home was just slightly better than the ride into work but what made it wonderful was seeing a herd of deer grazing on the side of the highway where they can be found at dusk most days.  It was almost dark and I caught them out of the “corner of my eye.  I think there may even have been a fawn.  It has been a while since i saw any deer. 

I sent a message to Jim tonight about lodgings.  I think I nearly panicked him when I asked if I was staying with him or not.  I only asked in case the situation at his place changed.  It hasn’t so I came home and within a matter of 30 minutes found a hotel room and made reservations at the Howard Johnson Hotel on Hamilton Blvd.  If I am not mistaken it's the place i have been to with Mom on the few trips we took together before she couldn’t travel anymore.  The Prices were excellent.  I got it through Hotel.com.  What I want to know is why this was so easy to do and when i go to choose a flight It's like the world is crazy?  Anyway it's about 4 minutes from JIm’s place.  I have to be there for 3 pm check in so I am trying to decide when I should leave here to arrive there.  I realize I don’t have to go to the hotel first but I am going to plan for both ways.

Haven’t done much since then.  I have been watching TV, did put dome laundry in and probably will go to bed soon.  I have to admit I am tired but need to catch up on stuff.  Tiger is asleep at my side and Sky is above me sleeping on the sofa cushion.  Something tells me I am sleeping on the couch tonight.

Dear Friends

October 8, 2013

Dear Friends:

Hope your Tuesday went well.  Mine did.  I got up by 6:30 and did some surfing and then got ready and left the house by 7:30.  As usual I probably should have left a little earlier but made it okay.

We had an early morning fire drill that took probably a half hour or so.  Since we had new departments and increase volume of people the Fire Department and Safety people needed to have one..  Can someone explain why we have to do it in in the cold?  

The rest of the day was fairly quiet.  I had a lot of mail and will need to finish the rest in the morning.  I worked on re-address mail that also included stuff that came in today including the Medical Society magazines.   I did offer to you know make a bon fire.  

Mom was annoyed with me when I got home but she was not feeling well either.  She didn’t like the fact I didn't clean the table off from dinner last night.  I didn’t particularly like her attitude last night either.  When I called this afternoon she was abrupt with me and that annoyed the crap out of me.

By the time I got home I talked it over with her and rectified it.  I made sure the kitchen was cleared up.  The pork dinner we had last night didn’t sit well with MOm.    Tonight I had the leftover pork and she had soup.

I did a load of laundry and it should be dried in another fifteen minutes.  I probably could have done it earlier but I was watching NCIS.  I have mixed feelings about this episode but i will save that for NCIS Blog.

I did make the phone squad messages to the members.  I had to broach the subject of dues with a couple of them.  Not the most easiest of tasks but they both said they take care of it..  I still have to confirm the dining room location for the sing-a-long and request that the piano is tuned.

I also did something I didn’t think I would do.  I  signed up with my old pen pal inky news trail site.  I even put an ad.  It will be for epals.  Its been a couple of years since I had them in my inbox.  I basically did it to help a member on one of my lists I moderate..  She hasn’t responded one way or another yet.

Mom tells me Jim called today.  He is fine.  They talked mostly about books they want or are going to read or would like to read.  It was just about then when I told her I was going to try and write the kids at least once a week but I still hadn’t heard from them from this past weekend.  I sent a good night message to Jim.  I am sure he will answer some time soon.

On that note I need to get to bed myself.  I have tons to do at work tomorrow.  I want to get to the office early or at least try.

Kate

Last Three Days part 2

August 7, 2013

Dear Friends:

I am still working on the post midnight/no sleep entry and it will be posted later.  Once I get home from Rita’s and I get other things done.

I am not sure what time I ended up falling asleep but it wasn’t a restful sleep at all.  my hands were hurting and the toe wasn’t as bad but I had taken  the generic tylenol.  People I have spoken too seem to think it might be gout.  I don’t know if Mom even thought of thought last night when I showed it to her.  I kept hitting the snooze button on the alarm.  Then started running late and then got sick from something.  I had to take a second shower.

JIm is leaving for home today.  He expressed some concern that Mom is not as well as we had hoped and he thinks that status is progressing faster than we thought.  I think he is worried, sad, scared.  I know I am going to be.  I let him know that as long as we stick together we will get through this and I told him I love him.  It was so that if he happens to have setbacks that he knows I will be there for him.  

We had a good talk and unfortunately its making me a little more worried.  He did encourage me to do what I have been doing.  Work the system we have.  I don’t know what else to do for now.  Take each day as it comes.

Well tis time for me to go.

Kate.

Dear Debra

Dear Debra:

    Yeah its Friday.  Its also way hot.  I hope you are keeping cool I am going to be doing some laundry soon and that’s all I am doing..  For a few reasons.  Its Friday night and I usually don’t get much accomplished on Friday.  My arm has been giving me grief again as of late.   I think it started earlier this week.  Its all the repetitive motion I have been doing with the mail and the scanning at work.  Well that’s what I Think it is.

I am afraid it will be rather uncomfortable place here this weekend.  While we were at the step great-nieces house for a picnic Mom irritated me a lot.  She was correcting how I was sitting at the table, Telling me what to eat and what not to eat.  I kept giving her the eye and gritting my teeth telling her to stop doing it.  On the way home we argued about directions she got on my freaking nerves so much we barked at each other.  I wanted to tell her off so much that I could have been spending time walking back to Milford..  Needless to say we didn’t talk for the rest of the night and she is still sullen now.  We speak but you know what I am saying.

She is also not real pleased with Liz telling everyone that Mom has cancer.  She made a comment to me that Dad used to call Liz the human Newspaper.  Well that’s too bad she can’t have it both ways.  I asked her if she told Liz how she felt and she said she sent her an email (I say that is a coward’s way out),  I expect to be bombarded by emails, text messages or calls or even blasted when I see her on Sunday (that’s if I am even going over there). 

So I should be having a grand weekend this weekend.  I will keep you posted or you will probably get a call from me at some point.

    Work was fairly quiet.  I would bet we had a skeleton crew for most of the day.  Our only restaurant in the building was closed for the weekend so the pickings for breakfast and lunch were slim to none  because it was too hot to go out).  I was able to get a lot done and early so I was able to work on scanning and stuff like that.  I stayed until 6 tonight.  I won’t be going in over the weekend at all.  I have a lot of things I want to do here this weekend.

    Mom and I got a very nice note from James Jr. today.  It was rather short. (Do most young boys ever write long notes?) He was just thinking of us I guess.  I think that’s supposed to be his thank you note to us for his graduation gifts.  The thing is I don’t think he has cashed or deposited his check from me.  It hasn’t cleared my account yet.  I think Kristina told me that he is at the halfway mark of his month long camp session..  I am not sure what else he is doing with the remaining weeks of summer.  I just looked at his schedule for High School  It looks like he moves in and starts around Labor Day.

    Well I better get to the laundry if I want to have my weekend fairly free of chores.  Happily it isn’t that big of a load.  So I should be done fairly early (read before Midnight). 

Have a great Night…

I can't believe it

I can’t believe it has been three days since I wrote. I have been going crazy doing things for not only the shared living but for the trip. I barely remember what I did Friday. I do remember that Anthony was supposed to sit with me was a no show. I got everything done and out of the way by the time I left the office.




Friday night we celebrated Mom’s return to her own bed. She can go up and down the stairs with relative ease. Just as long as someone is near by. She can do pretty much everything as long as she has the energy. I have had to finish up things she couldn’t but she has been cooking, all weekend.



I also check in on the cat for what I thought was the last time. I would discover that wasn’t the case.



I did laundry and have made the spare room my packing room. As the weekend has progressed more laundry has been done but not much else.



Saturday I did grocery shopping and banking and we had visitors. I was exhausted by the time I got home from shopping. After dinner I called it quits. I had moved the suitcase and some more clothes down for the trip.



We had some serious phone equipment issues that had to be resolved. I went out and bought a Panasonic phone with three additional units. Liz help set them up this morning. They were charging up until 9 or ten. Mom keeps saying it was phone service.



BTW, speaking of phone service we will be changing to cable phone and cable internet so I will be using my Google mail accounts. If anyone uses Optimum online could you answer some questions? 1) Do they have their own email accounts? 2) They said we would have to use a yahoo or Google accounts? What email programs do you use? We still have to get a router and they will install all that stuff next Friday. This room has to be in some what presentable shape.



Late yesterday my street had a visit from two wild turkeys. They explored the street from one end to the other. They even spent time in the yard. They climbed our neighbor’s cars and their front porch roof. They returned for a short visit this evening. They stayed closer to the main street this time.



Today I went to bingo a little late. I had to stop at the pharmacy to get a prescription from the dermatologist. Unfortunately he wrote it wrong and it needs to be checked out. When I arrived at Bingo Angela was already getting things started while she was getting her own activities ready. Sadly I found out two residents had passed away. My Millie and Lois passed away in the last two weeks. Lois hadn’t been to bingo for quite some time but I know she had gone down hill health wise. Millie was going down hill as well.



When I got home Liz was here and getting the phones in order. She kind of pissed me off when I told her the answering machine upstairs still has the messages that they made from downstairs. It seemed like she was treating me like I didn’t know what I was talking about. She made a slight dig at Bob after sge suggest that Bob take a look at why the phone was not working.. We explained he doesn’t know how to do those. “I thought he was supposed to be smart?” She had to leave for the museum as she was late for work. I am glad she did because she was pissing me off royally. It isn’t the first time this weekend she did this either.



After we had something to eat I got ready for shopping. This time I went to Shop Rite. I am not sure how long it took but I was tired and through out the day my knee had been bothering me.



Mom started cooking dinner around 5. It was also just about then when I was heading over to Roberta’s House. She had called me while I was shopping to let me know she and Mike were still at the airport in Philly.



I don’t remember going over to see the cat yesterday at all. I had given her enough food the day before but she was glad to see me. I spent at least 45 minutes with her. I fed and watered her (and she didn’t turn into a gremlin) I played with her on the floor too. I cleaned out the litter box too.



My cousin Bob came over for a visit. It was good to see him. The last time I saw him was at the family reunion. Anyway, he is truly his father’s son. He was still making the cornball political jokes that his late father would make to my mother.



Oh Rose called me today. She wanted to let me know that Tuesday’s pick up time had changed. We still have to meet the bus at 7:15 but Carol is picking us up at 6:15. She still has to get the kids ready for school.



I noticed my face breaking out again. I think it was because of playing with the cat today. It could also be the oils that were in the food we ate. Who knows?



Mom is in bed now but she really hasn’t been feeling well again today. She still is having problems with diarrhea. She did call the nurse today or at least spoke to them on the phone.



Okay I need to get ready for bed. I have another long day tomorrow…

Have been up a while

In a short while the alarms will be going off for five. I don’t know what time I actually woke up but I have been online surfing the net and watching TV. I am going to try and lie down again for a short while.




Then I am going to work and then to see Mom again and see if she needs anything. I think part of the reason I was up so early is because I wanted to be up to see if I could do anything (other than watch TV). I managed to get the guest bedroom made up. I also was now getting upset by an incident yesterday.



I called Liz and Nelson and Nelson answers the phone and tells me that Mom snapped at Liz and Liz left and ended up crying in the car. Nelson talked her through it but when he was telling me about it he was saying Mom is nasty. My problem is I know Liz She tends to be controlling and cutting in her comments, and is judgmental. I also know Mom she is impatient and controlling as well. Neither of them (Liz and Nelson) are willing to see what they bring to a situation. Hopefully Liz will have calmed down enough to do what is necessary.



Well let me try the sleep part.

The Family Reunion

I had a great time yesterday. The Coulombe family reunion was yesterday. There were about 50 of us. Aunt Rosalie was there. Most of the Heberts were there. Robbie and Judy H from the Harris branch and Joan Slavin-Rice were there. Sadly they avoided each other. The New Jersey Branch of the Coulombes could not attend. Donna B-Hall was there helping out. Bill Coulombe sans wife (her flight cancelled and she would have missed it all) was there. His Brother Bob and his family were there. Their brothers Joe and Frank couldn’t attend. Jim and the kids were there. Bob and Ethel and John were there. Of course the Rivera clan were in attendance and it was great.




The food was catered by Lassie’s restaurant in Milford. They really did a great job. They had Eggplant, a chicken dish, ziti, salad and I can’t remember what else. Hours later if you were hungry there was hot dogs and hamburgers. I had only one hamburger and potato salad as my ankle was becoming swollen and I had to ice it.



In between the eating and drinking there were groups’ that were telling stories, jokes and memory sharing. A Few of the cousins have posted pictures already to their Facebook pages. At one point I called Mom and told her who was in attendance and what was going on.



It was probably around 6 when we decided to go. Jim, Kristina and Jamie headed home while Emily and I went to the store to get ice cream and half and half. When we finally did get home the girls went for a walk and I hung around. The guys either slept or read a book.



I did manage to start some laundry and then when the girls came back they all went to the ice cream shop down the street. This I don’t understand. I got ice cream. They could have been more specific if they wanted to have some thing different.



The rest of the night they watched the L&O SVU marathon. I tried to watch it with them but I was getting tired and I wasn’t terrible excited by their editorials and comments. They probably didn’t do anything but I just get really annoyed with their attitudes and behaviors. For example: On the way to Liz and Nelson’s they were waving to people they passed by. One woman thought she knew them and was clearly uncomfortable. I was forceful and told her to stop.



They didn’t like being given chores to do and they (Emily) were quick to point out that one of our cousins was mean to them. That’s just the way she is. She was giving instructions to them and they were clearly not moving fast. Emily was lying across one of the tables that were trying to get taped and I had to tell her three times to get off it.



Today they slept late while I went and did bingo. They were supposed to go to see Mom before leaving and then have lunch or something with an old friend of Jims. Emily texted me to say goodbye and they loved me. The guilty conscious started then.



It was nearly noon when I got home. I watched TV did some laundry and had lunch. I managed to pay the one bill Mom wanted down (after trying to find it for two days).



Later on in the day I got ready for the Ice Cream social at Telka’s house. I wasn’t sure if I would be driving in rain because for a short time there was some thunder rolling through. It was still cloudy when I left.. I stopped and got some ice cream and arrived shortly before 6:30. There were several people there already.



The event went on for about an hour and half. There was an activity first then we ate and then we had the information session. Afterwards we broke up and some of them went home. I am already having doubts about a few of them. By the time I left and took Kelly C home it was pouring out. The rain started letting up by the time I got home.



Oh Jim did call around 6 from Allentown. He had been home only a short time. He said traffic was bad. We talked about how he thought Mom looked and how much she enjoyed having the kids and about how quickly she will be home. I think he has some doubts on some level.



I did a few more things before calling it a night. I emptied the garbage and the dryer and got the dishes down. They have about another 15 minutes but I will empty those tomorrow.



I did watch more of the NCIS Repeat Offenders Marathon but I was also falling asleep as well. I need to get some sleep so I can get up early if I can.

Some Updates

I heard from Dave this afternoon. I called him earlier today to confirm his arrival this afternoon. He was just going to his car. He arrived probably around Noon time. We discussed Aunt Rita (I apparently forgot to tell him that Mom was going down and that Rita was terminal). We discussed the whole Bin Laden take down. WE both agreed that it would not do anyone any good to see pictures of his body because there will always be someone questioning it or doubting it. WE also discussed the down payment method for the Trip to Canada. We also confirmed that I would be taking care of the pup next week.




I had a surprise call from my Joanie R. The lovely woman I work with her had a stroke while I was on vacation. She had been back in the hospital recently because of dehydration and just today has been moved to Masonicare at Newtown. She had PT this morning and was expecting two more this afternoon. She will be having it three times a day while she is there. I told her about my Aunt. I probably shouldn’t have but I tell her most everything anyway. She thanked me for calling her and I pointed out that she is the one who called me



I haven’t heard anything else from CC but when I talked with Liz (this morning) and Tessa this afternoon. I had gotten some news. Liz says that Carol had a seizure (which I think I may have said that) and when I spoke to Tessa she says that Mom called her but wasn’t on long as a family relative was just arriving (I am surmising that would be Cousin Don).



My Cousin Mike (Carol’s oldest son) posted on Facebook he is on his way home to see his grandmother. He hasn’t been there long (in Afghanistan). He says he should be in CC in a day or two. He is very close to his Grandma. I did post a message to him not sure he will see it anytime soon.



I am still doing laundry. May take a break from it for now and do the rest tomorrow. I still have stuff in the dryers but that’s it for today. At least most if not all of my work clothes are ready. I will have to start thinking about taking out my summer clothes pretty soon. Everything I have now is heavy winter clothes. That’s’ a chore I am not looking forward to.



I better get to the paper tossing stuff now. See ya later.

Awkward Moments

Today Mom asked me if Liz and Nelson discuss her when I visit their home and I told her no. This came about last night when Liz and Nelson came by to drop off the rugs from Aunt Serena and Warren. While Mom was talking to Liz Nelson was trying to get Liz to leave. Mom put him in his place.




The question was a rather awkward one to answer but I told her no. In the past they have but I also told a few things. First she should talk to them about it and she flat out refused. Something I don’t agree with. She feels that continuing to discuss things exacerbates problems. In the very distant past Nelson has said things to me criticizing Mom on how she treats me and Liz. Unfortunately he needs to take a good long hard look at his behavior.

I also said to Mom that I try to avoid conversations like that. Sometimes I do feel as though we are gossiping or bitching but at the same time children discuss things about their parents. I am certain Mom had done it with her siblings over the years when it came to Mom. I did also tell her that Liz did ask me about her health and trying to respect Mom’s privacy and how she feels about being discussed.

We did agree that both Liz and Nelson are very judgmental and I was trying to give examples and Mom kept asking “when was she in the car with you?” I couldn’t give her examples but she did say to me when I told her liz felt uncomfortable about talking about the past that I should have said okay. Well I did. I am really tired of having to defend myself and my actions to her. It felt like a criticism. That she and Liz think they have to try to “contain me and my emotions” and something I told her I mentioned to Debra.”



This is not the first time Mom has said that she isn’t going to “discuss things or hash things out because they “don’t get resolved”. I am here to tell you she is in for a very rude awakening if she doesn’t start to discuss things. She needs to hear other people’s point of view and I some times think she cuts her self off. She isn’t willing to listen. I don’t always feel she is as open as she claims she is.



When I came home from the meeting tonight she asked me if I was disappointed in the fact that we didn’t get to do all that I had hoped to while in Allentown. I told her I was a little but that it wasn’t Jim’s fault that I should have gone on my own. She said it wasn’t my fault or she wasn’t interested in blaming but she was concerned that he may be in depression again. Huge leap to conclusions! I explained to her what his day was like. I really wasn’t expecting these questions but I just told her that I probably could have gone to the museums or to the hatchery on my own. She asked me if I even knew where it was. I told her I did.

I did ask her if she heard from Jim tonight and I was wondering if that’s what spurred these questions. She said no.



Okay well it is getting late and I am tired. I was able to get some cleaning done before dinner and the meeting but have more to do. I have to vacuum under the bed tomorrow and try to get to the baseboards behind the bed but there isn’t a lot of space for that. The same goes for the desk. My intention next week when I start my vacation again is to clear out the closet and clear out the desk and file cabinets.



The meeting went well. We talked about the upcoming officers elections for the girls club (the woman’s club is a given). Well that is if DK doesn’t get it in her head to run for office. She is just not cut out in my opinion to be an officer of the club. Her attitude for one and her bullying tactics are another.



Okay have a great night.

The End of a Busy Weekend.

Hey everyone its the end of a busy weekend. Friday my vacation came to an end and the beginning of going back to a regular routine started on Saturday. Mom presided over a wedding here at the house and we had 20 people in our small living room. I also was having my computer reinstalled as it crashed on Friday. Today I had my bingo and then went to my sister's for a family gathering to introduce the family to the newest additions to the Rivera family.




Now I am just relaxing and keeping an eye on my computer (Mom's letting me use hers until mine is all set with updates and stuff).



I am sort of aggravated right now as somethings that bothered me today during the family gathering and during bingo have been going over in my head:



1) As a friendly gesture I was getting to know a new resident and her daughter. The daughter thought my asking her where she was from was a little "too personal". My response is to fucking grow up. (the bingo session)



2) I picked my friend Dave up to attend the family party we went to and he made fun of the way I was introducing my bil's BIL to him.



3) Through out the time I was getting nervous or anxious anytime Dave opened his mouth when ever he said "how can I say this" I would tell him nicely or carefully. I had gotten looks from my nephew to relax.



4) I was telling my mother how upset another friend of mine applied for a job and discovered someone else got the job before she felt it was properly advertised. She felt there was inappropriate handling. It annoyed me she wasn't understanding my friends view. That's probably why I haven't said anything since "T" told me about it.



6) Dave would tell people I would give him updates and not mention that particular person. He would ask who everyone was related too. I would tell him.



7) He would point out the food and ask me if I tried it. He had given Mom a piece of Flan and it really pissed me off because he has done it to me in the past. Serve food w/o asking if we wanted it or not. I looked at him and asked him to please not just do that w/o asking. When I reminded him later his response was "Well she doesn't have to eat it". If I fucking did that to anyone do you really think it would be appreciated?



8) I told Mom later about it and apologized for the fact Dave did it. She looked at me and reminded me that I said I would not be judgemental of him. She didn't mind him doing it and appreciated. She never ever understands my aggravation with Dave and always makes excuses for him.

9) After my Mom left and we were talking about the wedding and our discovery that our house is small. My sister makes a joke that when Mom and I are fighting it isn't big enough. Why the hell does she have to make comments like that? There was no need for her to do that. Of course the others laughed and agreed that is basically the case in their home.




I get so damn angry over it. Now I am feeling guilty over it and she wants me to email him and thank him for giving the flan. IF she doesn't mind it then SHE should be the one to call him.

Mom called Tonight

She called just before 6 and told me how things were going. He has been sleeping most of the time since she arrived. I am not sure what that means exactly. I did ask if they gave expectancy but she quickly said no. She said that she would be leaving there in the morning and getting into Hartford around 4:40 and it would take about an hour for her to get her luggage and then drive home.

She asked how things were going here I told her fine. I didn’t tell her I left the heat on all day today. How dumb can I be? I told her about the phone calls she got. They were the Prescription stuff, Rita calling, and Robbie Allen.

Oh man I don’t know what is going on but everything I seem to touch is taking too long to do. As it is I started getting angry and imagining conversations or shouting matches with Liz. I talked with her tonight but it went fairly well.

We talked earlier in the day and I asked her if we were alright and she told me she was annoyed with me for criticizing and judging the Coulombes and telling me they don’t need any of our shit. A part of me wanted to tell her to fuck off because she was criticizing how Mom gets when it comes to grieving or behaving badly. It just pissed the living daylights out of me.

Well I got some of the laundry done but I still have more here to do but I am tired and achy. I am going to get up early and get it done. Well at least start it and then finish when I get home.

I need to go to bed…

I had a stressful weekend.

Hey everyone. Yesterday turned out to be rather stressful. I ended up not writing a whole lot because of that stress.

While vacuuming I managed to make a big mess. I was vacuuming in the bathroom in the kitchen and I wasn’t paying attention to where I had the wand/hose to the Kirby (in the toilet). It sucked up about 1 or 2 cups of water into the bags. It then leaked all over the floor. I finally had to tell Mom and she was really upset. We finally got it apart (the bag from the rest of the machine and as I did it a ring of hers popped out. It was one she thought she had lost. The whole ordeal was very stressful. Donny checked out the vacuum cleaner and feels I didn’t do any damage to the motor. I just didn’t use it the rest of the time vacuuming downstairs.

I have to admit I was pretty angry and thought Mom was incredibly abusive at least
Verbally. She was better by the time we left for Cheryl’s. We had to go in separate cars because Mom had dinner plans with her friend Martha.

Liz pissed me off too. Her whole attitude was just obnoxious. When she asked if they got to see Mom we told her she had a dinner date…she actually thought we meant a date with a guy. What a fucking moron. She asked me if we had heard from Jim and I said yeah he called to ask a question. What is she fucking entitled to know? She made some comment for the life of me I don’t understand. After some of us went in and we all went into the house I stayed in my bathing suit longer than anyone else. Liz whispers ‘get dressed’. Ah who the fuck died and left you the boss of me?

During mass today all those angry emotions came back. Now really Mom didn’t do anything or say really anything to me to get me on that track. It was just me remembering the events from yesterday.

I know I have absolutely no patience with Mom when she wants to do something with the computer. She wanted to find the website for a new show on PBS. She asked me oh how to save it. She was also going to find EBAY. Well she was going to write the entire URL in the MSN search engine box. Hello? I told her not there like freaking three times.

I told her how to get home tonight from Gayle’s house tonight. “Oh no that’s saying going south”. Why do you fucking contradict me every mother fucking time I open my mouth?

I also found myself saying I can’t stand being with any of my family these days because they either think they are better than me or speak down to me or just absolutely disregard anything I feel or think. I actually thought this yesterday.

Recess week officially over

Actually Monday is the official last day of recess week but today felt like the end was near. I spent a lot of time trying to catch up on stuff. I still have a lot to do but I think I can do it. I just have to remember starting Jan 2, 2008 if i feel overwhelmed then I need to get to patti.

I sitll have to get the mail from the lobby and sort it and readdress it but I wanted to get the stuff I have at my desk out first. I don't think that's going to happen.

It was after 4:30 when I got home. Mom was putting a book cover on the cookbook I gave her for Christmas. We would be having chicken for dinner a little later.

At dinner Mom told me she had talked iwth Rita about Carol and the current health crisis. MOm is just not veyr comfortable with the information that Rita is providing. They are not being forthcoming or not telling eveyrthing. Liz and Mom talked aobut it and Liz was expecting Mom to go be with Rita. She was saying Bernie would. I thought it was a stupid thing for liz to say. I was expressing aggravations and mom wouldn't hear of it. So needless to say this conversation was a bit tenuous.

I have spent the better part of the evening doing pen pal stuff. Now that is after 10 and my eyes are going crosseyed. I am going to bed.

December 5, 2006

It is gray and cloudy right now. I am not even bothering to pay attention to the weather report on the radio. It is supposed to be sunny today and probably in the 30’s. Just checked weather.com and it is 29 degrees and cloudy. Sunrise was 18 minutes ago. The sun came out a little after 8…yeah...

I spent the morning updating my address book surfing the net and watching TV. I took my bath around 11 and got dressed. Mom came home

Dave came for me around 12:40 and we headed to the movie theater. We got the tickets and then got some food. I really over did it. Two slices of pizza, fries with cheese and chili and a shake. We went and saw Casino Royale. It was good by at one point I noticed it got really long. Afterwards I had to use the ladies room and then we went to Borders.

We found a CD for Patrick and Dave got his card and then we headed back to the car it was just 3:30. Mom was on the computer. She had gone shopping we talked about dinner and around 5 we ate.

We had salmon and rice and vegetables. I couldn’t finish it because I was full. Mom did ask me if I had anything at the movie theater I told her a shake. She was not pleased but guess what I don’t care.

I was offended that Mom continues to brush off any offers to help her with moving something or just even chatting. I was telling her in a fun way that I would be sitting in her chair. She got all flustered and acted as though I was intruding on her all important emails. It was hurtful but I walked away.

Telka emailed about the gift wrapping and I realized I am working from 11 to 1 that day. I have to wear black and something else. I also emailed her about the bowl-a-thon money. She will give it to me on Saturday. I had told her in the email I needed to bring it on FRIDAY. Something else came up as well. Apparently the Chamber of Commerce requires the girls who have written grants to attend the meeting at 4 pm. They need a ride and an adult there I guess.

I haven’t had any responses from Rich Smith or Barry Kasdan in regards to the request yet. I hope they call soon.

I need to finish the card list tomorrow and get the newsletter written. I looked on line for some ideas on how to write them. I can’t to a few sites that had good ideas. I can’t find the links right now but I am going to do a search.

I had a few emails from guys. One was in regards to the Hobby Kat which I thought was a legitimate site but apparently it was spam. I had replied to it via the list and it was an invite to check out the site. He then emails me and asks me to look for a job for him.
I sent the reply confirming that he spammed the group and told him I didn’t know him so what would be the point. I told him not to email me again. I don’t know if he replied. I think I may have blocked his email.

Gloria Woodward emailed asking me if I was interested and I didn’t really recognize the email. She was wondering if I was interested in swapping or buying a poster of Green Bay. She was getting a little pushy but I just said thank you no.

This guy emailed me wanting to be pen pals. He is married and has written to women only for friendship. I told him I don’t write men. I was going to give him the reason being I had that experience last spring.

It is now after 10 and I am exhausted. I need to get to sleep so I can get up fairly early and get these cards finished up as much as possible. I am thinking I might go to the store and buy more. I am not sure.